Knowing God!!

What can a satiated lazy bum do for leisure? I mean, having watched half a dozen sitcoms; relished the "awesomest" landscape (available on DC); got a headstart on the "to do" list, ie when I was supposed to study... now, with a free pass to feel good, what else can I possibly do.... so here I am, staring at my download manager, and wondering "why aren't there any miracles, when you need them the most".... In such difficult times, I summon the one guy who does everything I ask, only one which makes me feel that I am needed, that I am at the top of the world and my every command will be taken care of, like a genie.... yes, the task manager....

You know the moment when nothing else matters, when you wont even budge even if the rest of the Universe just vanished... the same feeling you get while watching your multiple downloads race like sperms to fill the scanty little space available in your computer... such out of body, spiritual experiences leave me dumbfounded, specially on a 250kbps connection, where time runs slow, and needs to be reconnected, just like strings interacting on a high dimensional brane..... this feeling, that you can end a process any time you want, and create new ones that oppress the old ones and unscrupulously reproduce until the system goes bankrupt... I am sure that God exists.... and he is enjoying every second of it... rather I believe, he is messing with us on each and every step, I would if I was.... every time we device a new experiment or theory, he adds a rung to the ladder instead of letting us set foot on firm ground... every new fundamental constant we find, he restarts his random number generator to create another one.... maybe he is just tossing coins to manipulate the universe, just sometimes using one with national emblem on both sides.... maybe at this very moment, when I am writing this post, he is busy changing his polynomials to fit the past observations, just to fuck us up in the future...

And just like that, its over... alas! a power cut... The gap between 100% and complete is so minuscule, yet so trepidating, specially on Windows, that I couldn't help but believe in divine intervention.... I'm sure, God is getting even with me for having divulged his schemes.... but when I think about it, I was anyway going to stop thinking as soon as download finished... does he want me to know what is he upto... I'm sure he is mocking me, saying "Do what you want, lowlife! you can never match me", just like a superset.... But you know, I like this... This is the type of God I'd respect; sadist, arrogant, patronising, and most important of all "hedonist".... and voila! its back... I guess either God is as dumb as a Kapil Sibbal, or else he is just too happy to have a shrewd sycophant like me for a subject.... I'd prefer latter, because prior version of my theory needs to many "Gandhi"s to bring world to the state it is currently in.... who gives a shit, I have my downloads, so I can finally find out what happened to Pablo Escobar..... why dont you go find some shit worth doing instead of reading musings of someone fixated on fucking "little less than half the world"...

Scientific Journalism Demystified

Scientific Journalism is a very exciting field, specially for people interested in science, but coming from a non-science background... In fact, without such guys, there wont be any excitement and the intriguing gap between science fiction and reality will show up... Till now, weak philisophical arguments like Anthropological Principle, or Copenhagen Interpretation have been used to explain the observed strength of Scientific-Journalism, and it has various names in various civilizations like Satan, Force, etc. Over the course of history, it has developed a religious stature, and has many devoted followers. The extent of the influence can be compared to Illuminati and the free Masons (it may be same as them); BBC, Discovery, etc and will continue to grow under great religious leaders and proponents like Rajnikant, Brian Greene, Michio Kaku, etc... I've researched pretty deep into the area, and after comparing each such report with textbook accounts, observing detailed HD videos, and I have found the Holy Grail of Scientific Journalism, which has been a mystery ever since the Prokaryotes appeared on Terra... I'll explain vital points through a thoroughly researched example, made with help of experts in my excellent unary team (from IITD)... Without any further ado, let me begin my Tryst with Scientific Journalism...

Poison running in our veins

According to a recent study by a group of researchers at IIT-Delhi, there has been a startling discovery about a supposedly harmless chemical named Dihydrogen Oxide. This is a fairly abundant species in our biosphere, but its harmful effects have never been studied in such detail, probably due to lack of adequate technology, and general lack of funding. It appears, in addition of causing global warming in gaseous state, it also supports production of other greenhouse gases like methane as a liquid medium. One of the major components of all alcoholic beverages, it is also a carrier of diseases like cholera, diarrhea, typhoid, hepatitis, etc. It is also known for its energy storing properties, being the most common fire-extinguisher, and also used in fuel cells, as well as first aid for skin burns.In solid form, it is used during 3rd degree torture and cooling beverages, and is an industrial coolant including nuclear power plants.

In household supply, its concentration is about 0.055 mole/ml, and the refreshing properties of a bath are supposedly attributed to this compound. "There have been speculations about its side effects, so we have reduced our bathing frequency in all the IITs" said a 2nd year student from IIT - Delhi, who also believes that people in all engineering colleges were aware of these effects long before the research. This is also the reason increasing affinity towards alcohol. A friend Sri (false name) said, "I've conditioned myself to drinking NEAT, to avoid ingesting even the slightest amount of this dreadful chemical." And then he vomitted out all the mess food, which is cooked in the water that comes from supply. "He is very sensitive to chemicals, and this happens once in a while." added his friend, who himself fainted next. Humanities department find it hard to believe that no one noticed it till now, and is planning to file an RTI, or may also go for a Satyagraha.

When senior scientists were asked for opinion, they all replied, "If you want to live, you better shut up." On condition of anonymity, Prof. X revealed that due to high availability and cheap recycling, dihydrogen oxide has been a major component of human diet since ancient civilizations came into existence. After more detailed studies by Sir Humphrey Davy, all the governments made a pact to never record or reveal this fact, and started using alcohol to reduce the effects on themselves. This is also the reason for high taxes on alcoholic products, as well as presence of alcoholic base in medicines. Our body has been habituated to the compund so much that, although it has to be injested, biomagnification has led to much more than 10% concentration in our bloodstream and body fluids. The colour of our planet as seen from space is also due to this highly versatile compund, which has about 10 phases known, and is impossible to remove from our biosystem......BANG...tn... tn... tn..." With this our telephonic conversation ended so we could not know more.

But the group is hopeful about finding a remedy soon. Ethanol is known to mix in it in all volumes, and can thus be excreted out from our body. Also, ethanol can serve as a substitute to dihydrogen oxide as a solvent, and a coolant. It has been suggested that everyday dosage of 100ml 100 proof ethanol content can improve social interactions, and also helps in reducing fear and anxiety.

More on this next time...

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As you can see, this article contains all the major contents of a scientific article by a journalist. Scientific Journalism shows us only the truth, exposes all the conspiracies, and also lets out the anarchy spread throughout the society. Sadly, some curious people who get inspired by Scientific articles, turn to trusted sources of learning more, thereby causing a knowledge imbalance, and get deluded into criticizing Scientific Journalism. But, they should know that answers to all the problems like Dark Energy, Teleportation, Time Travel, even Theory of Everything, etc already exist and have been hidden from the society. It is not because our understanding is limited, but because a wizard alien (most probably Bert) in the independence hall is trying to turn all worthy man into having sex with more than one woman, meanwhile his comrades are on their way to capture our planet and turns us into smurf-berried that could power the matrix... Get REAL!!!

© Mehul Kumar

Boredom...

Phew... getting better is difficult, even at being worse.... I never thought unblogging will be so difficult, I mean just building castles but not having any visitors can be really frustrating.... Only if I weren't so lazy, I might have fallen prey to HIV - Holiday Internship Virus.... I guess NIUS (No Internet for Undergraduate Students - courtesy Vipul Singh) also helped me keep away from jotting it down... Atleast I accomplished to least energy consuming target.... Everything else above my "well"...

All those days when I told myself, 'God, if only I had time, I'd do this for sure, something wothwhile...', were only to subdue my guilty conscience, and to curse the system; of course I knew, but before my subconscious could have seriously messed up stuff, I'd have been outta here... Everything was planned when suddenly out of nowhere came this 20% off without any *, and before I could realise my blueprints, my contract expires..... Why would u give me an eternity just after caning... Yes, I want to visit library, but wait, it'll be there even if I goof around for a while.... And now I am weared out, just to fall asleep the moment I set sail... poof!!! recess over, back to work.....

I am strictly against giving a sabbatical to lab-rats of Indian Education industry, specially when they come from "cell blocks with pc", bailed out for 73 days wtihout a parole bond.... No one even cares if I get vucked up, everyone on the inside is just like me, and everyone on the outside thinks I know my shit.... I mean, I was so bored that I thought I'd die.... It'd be rather crazy if I died of boredom... But, then I feel that I am one the few people who could actually do it.... For instance, if I was lazier, I'd not even take the trouble of thinking, and static universe won't be such a trouble after all... And if I was anymore interested in this world, then it would have been very diificult to stay dormant.... At a critical level of boredom, such people enter a bifurcation in realm of activity, where the governing parameter is laziness of course.... Even I am little prone to the second kind of perturbations, but I promise to work (or rather not work) on it.... If someone succeeds in reducing noise to such level that his reactions occur only on extrapolating beyond the state of complete equilibrium of his body, he might just die out of boredom before gathering the will to do something (about it).... And then, I guess Kapil Sibbal will finally have the opportunity to provide every one of us with summer activities that pay good, and that too without causing any stress, maybe holiday to Goa, etc.... I wonder how will they fit reservation in this scenario...

So u see I am bored to the core, desperately waiting to meet my pals and party (although it just means some carrom, ice-cream, bakaiti and nightouts - ie if NDTV doesn't invites us >:D ).... U'll see more of me from now on.... Stay tuned..

P.S. - Title is borrowed from a very good friend's username, who took all the trouble to contact a lazy ass like me... Thank u, I had been thinking of contacting u, but my memory and online time are strictly out of phase... I hope u understand.... And u too :)

Dattebayo!!!

I had been meaning to write this for a very long time, and now, when I can't find an excuse not to, my wicked self has finally adulterated a few neurons, so that my ego and twisted attitude forces me to unveil my curiosity... I know, everything is possible for those who do not have to do it themselves... Not being veteran, I ask this from those who are/were -  How is it like, to be "At Love"? I mean, everything is fair... but, there must be some catch.. Why do people even fall in love - n why is it always falling? It can't be good enough to risk the whole earth for it.... All the shit-faced uncle fuckers, who r jumpin' rite now, calling out in the name of family n friends, can just keep on pleasuring themselves their whole life... Right now, I am talking to those weirdos, who wear tight fitting colours, generally in all the wrong places, and even when they can fuck anyone on the planet, end up being Siths for petty little senseless "class/work mates"....

My third party observations suggest that love is a great equaliser... people tend to converge to the same hopeless, mediocre state of existence, denying all the cheesecakes and gpl they can get...based on a weighted average, love will fetch u in the order 10^5 per annum.... all the supremums and infimums converge... ie love is a cauchy sequence, ie differences should vanish as time passes....but this also means that love increases entropy of the system, brings it to worthless equilibrium, better than any constituition... ie love is spontaneous, as we know love is exothermic already.... but, it being so spontaneous, I am still not into it.... well, i've always tried to obey the rules, but this one just isn't my cup o' tea... does it imply I am already deranged, and thus a partner for me ain't the optimum soln, specially in the skewed society that I live in... But, brief overview of my peer group, coupled with scrutiny of numerous foreign research material like 3.1415926..., 21, etc, I safely infer that this is a Game... and, leaving the irrelevant test cases (both to me, n the society..), all we are left is with a compromise between short-lived passion n long-lasting happiness....

I am so sure that sex is an over-rated phenomena.... I may not be qualified enough to explain thoroughly, but as much as I have seen this life, there is no scope at all for any invention/discovery, of course except people like Srinivas (who can do a PhD n yet remain aloof) who write papers, n more people like Srinivas who publish it.... the g-spot is a vague, or probably psychological concept (Yes, there r people who r still searching...), and clitoris isn't the solution for world hunger, or global warming.... It may be quite the contrary... Sure I am that this is a ploy, worse than reservation, of cleaning the path to success by infiltrating our camps, befriending and corrupting the brave soldiers of destiny, and to stop the fellowship at any cost.... Just like vampires, the infiltration is so deep, that like masons, we, the hopes of the new world, have begun doubting our comrades, ourselves, even our faith, and dreams, and slowly succumbing to our little John, our foundations are shaking..... I have been over it so many times, that presently, biggest incentive to get laid is verification of this hypothesis.... I have seen enough laboratories, to know that I am better of with theory, without entering even one of those.... Many of them are already in bad shape, and the well maintained ones are either always filled, have prior engagements, and in any case, are very slimy, leaking, senseless, and need I mention, horribly GROSS... So, this is a request, all the experienced INTELLIGENTLEMAN (if any), this is a public survey directed towards a very specific social group... lower ur input resistance, let B --> 0.... This is also to wake up the great many "futures" of great many houses, the winners, who have fallen and have/will realize the pointlessness and the despair, reconsider!!! And, if not, atleast bring some exclusive and intelligent stuff, something delightful and Cranium-worthy... I am not saying anything, I am just asking "WHY?"...
All hail Calvitman...

Somethin' in ur mouth...

Dude, ur thinking is seriously gay... I am talking about food here, although I did take care of ur kind too (just hang on), anyway....
I don't know why, but I often wonder how human began eating a few things... u know what I mean... things like frog legs, or lady finger (which for obvious reasons, I prefer calling okra),... and even worse is the case, what not to eat... Statistically, mouth is the third most abused organs, and certainly, the 2nd most experimented upon... I mean, even as a baby, everything (nearly) has to be tasted, to know for sure... Although this process gets confined to more specific areas, but is still one of the most fun way of experimentation...

Well the first argument can be apes... Being our brethren, kindov like Bear Grylls is now, we must have seen them do it, and (contradictory to common belief) imitated their actions.... Thats explains a lot of stuff ranging from fruits, berries, etc.... But, monkeys were not so common all over the world, and I can't help thinking, "Did Chinese try to imitate panda?" or may be they ate anything that moves and/or grows or both.... But, rice doesn't fit this criteria... In fact, most grains became dominant plants only after humans started farming....

Warning : Next para contains explicit stuff, read only if u r above 18 years of age (21 in some states)
I am more in the favour of hypothesis that eating and intercourse must have been historically a Jumbo Combo, and it is supported by the physical characteristics of many eatables....Specially in India, the salad components are regularly found in hostels, in all the wrong places.... Without much brainstorming, I can see that women were the main experimenters, and males were workers who gathered approved material... Otherwise, we all would be eating fruits that juice only by pressing at the right points... Although, I'm sure pies, and to large extent, pancakes had male inventors, so is the case with melons, and oranges... Or else this is a marker of  our homosexual history... It also explains that why so much of raw goods are gross and slimy... Even scientifically, love and large amounts of chocolate activate the same parts of our cerebrum.... This may also explain why some foods sound so sexy, and in general, both acts carry mouth-watering or bouncing syllables... Even here Chinese go the furthest of all... I mean, who names their kid Chap Som Bong.... or cities like Pe(e)king, Beijing, Shanghai...just like they have momos and yīnjīng
Now u can read, and I know u read the last one even more carefully...

Even more bewildering is "What not to ingest?".... I mean, if all the experimenters followed the first procedure described here, how were we able to decide that snackes are delicacies, or the grow potatoes, etc... Coz, if it were true, someone must have tried bamboo, snake scales, or even more likely - shit (ie except Bear Grylls)... And in that case, how did we leave the lethal poisons, specially when all the pharmaceutical companies didn't have licenses.... or may be, it is the other way round, that instead of copying animals, we domesticated animals only to use them, until they went old (which is another thing I wonder - conception of time, but lets stick to the point).... and then, we used them for science, and for betterment of the "whole world".. it seems likely to me..... Where was the breed Homo Activiens then?? I m sure they evolved with us, condemning everything that we developed - either in the name of god, or environment or whatever...i guess, coz they love acting pissed or maybe they just hated being gay.... I m sure they were there, protesting... maybe a hunger strike(quite apt here :)), but they were there.... thatswhy I favour the second procedure... that, women's instincts getting stuffed with new, colourful and slimy stuff led to us ending with rainbow on our plates, and also the present sex ratio in India.... I guess this must have been what biology meant...

Also, I have reasons to believe that our present sampling and data collection is based on basic necessities like food...if it weren't for systematically repeated trials with six sigma assurance, conspiracy theorists provoking human curiosity would have wiped us all, except most of the teachers, that is.... but, then we would not be an intelligent society anymore... ie we could have had a life different from both, the barbaric society and the present system - common to humans, crabs n rats (less intense for the last two) - grouping, and greed, and foolishness..... but, that society would have an oobe, one with ε development index, competing with sloth and clams... Which means, we could have eaten algae from our own dermis, how comfortable...And that would be a world without thinking, where I'd be an outcast (Man! always wanted to be)...more like Jonathan Livingston Seagull, soaring high in the skies of uncertainty, crossing limits, attaining perfection... Damn, why did my long gone forefathers even think about stats...

And, now I realize I am hungry, and that the post has just entered the realm of existentialism again... Better give it a rest here... Don't worry, there is more to come... I mean appear...
Good day fellas
And a Happy Meal

Too much time on my hands!!

Suddenly, it was all over.... there I was, as the last element of that array of best guys in the country, watchin' the clock, contemplating examiner's arguments, and an optimum defense, just to make the semester look less miserable on the charts.... And, poof... i was not a fresher anymore... technically I am, but somewhere in my heart, I know I've lost it.... They just left us, all those profs, to do whatever we want. No reason, to even stop at 3 movies per day, none to stop hitchhiking in trucks, or to debar us from roaming and singing and getting lost at 3 in the night.... It almost makes me nostalgic, and sure I miss those good days, when everyday was a fight to extract the maximum fun out of "Licensed to kill" days of IIT.....

But, this post ain't for sentimental jibber-jabber... there are more important tasks at hand... like visiting the meadows, lush green all around (specially on weekends), cool air and mcd soothing the mess-food striken body, and eyes caressed by the panorama, as far as one can see.... This is good, though not as good as chics playing clarinet in Vegas.... There I was, amidst all this flurry, when universe didn't even care about my existence... And, I was wearing a Computer Science dep T-shirt.... Now calm down.. Let me explain.... The new found freedom, coupled with hormonal changes, helped regenerate the analytical part of cerebrum (which is of course, kindov vestigial during the semester) and I could see it all, as clear as plexiglass, or say PHEMA... Damn it (I hate u MEL).... So I was saying I could see it all, just like Russel Crowe in a billiards room...

Game theory says it all.....I wore the T-Shirt, sure I did.... assuming u can do ur part well once u have her attention, a guy who becomes a douchebag, only to show that his partners are from so called elite class of alpha males of the society, can be very very handy.... n that is exactly what I was doing.... I do care for myself, but aim ain't the same... And doing such a thing, I make u responsible to help me when I want... So, it is in favour of all of us.... Anyone who goes by The Rules and The Game will never get this, its a Jersey thing.... apparently, it is not a nash equilibrium situation for individual games, but when summed up, yes it is.... And I still wonder if someone else found this out....

Then there was that discussion over "Fvck the fvcking fvcker"... or something.... and some people (yes u) got furious over me breaking an isomorphism from Words (W) to Meanings (M).... skipping the details, it was finally agreed upon by majority that it is the case of L(R1(W,M),(R2(W,M)....) - indexes denote people... U see, we cannot change.... no matter how many classes we skip, whatever sitcoms we finish, we end up learning and applying whatever we know... n often end up, annoying the shit out of people.... It is so fundamental, I believe there is some hedgehog gene for this as well....

If u r a commerce student, sorry, for such accusations, please move on to the next para... There is a little commerce student in all of us... who is afraid someone will find out what an asshole he is... But, then there is a Science Student too... We, the engineers, are perfect blend of Science and Commerce Students, we are intelligent, easily inspired and hard working like Science Students, but we are assholes, lazy-asses and full of inferiority complex like commerce ones...... Please note - we are talking of Ideal cases only... all those buzzards who pick science to act cool, and the maggus who prefer reigning in Hell, have been spoiling all the beauty..... anyway, my point is, we are the hybrids of Science n Commerce (CS guys being more science, just coz others act show a +ve polarity towards commerce wrt us), we rule this world (under guidance of NON-STUDENTS... of course)... and the question of any significant contribution doesn't apply to us, coz we can direct it either way.... we are the all singing, all dancing crap of the universe... and no matter how many semester u put us through, we will still end up screwing everyone, beginning the day we get out....

As u can see, I have not yet mastered the newly gained Intelligent Tissues, and its obvious I've got TOO much time on my hands.....It is in ur hands too... U can either waste it trying to improve, or u can improve ur living standards by getting wasted... This summer, u can dance with the smurfs, hang out with elves, blow up some death stars, kick some ass with the reporter n his dig, gaze at ur ceiling fan, be a Watchmen n save the earth, help Naruto fail the Moon eye...... or u can just try getting taller, stronger, sharper.... n in the end, u'll die trying... yes you too, u'll die trying getting rich..... Waqt aapka, faisla aapka, jago grahak jago
jane!!

My OOBE....seriously lame!!!

Hey fellas...
Seen any morons lately??

Coz I certainly did.... Although sane by definition, some of them were totally lame.... May be its a Jersey thing....U decide...
(Note : The events are hashed n all these numbers r special in some way)
42 - Pendrive Hypothesis
Last month, I was scooping some sheets for batti lab, and beside me was a well dressed potato garnished with an olive, apparently selling some pen drive n stuff. I had just screwed mine (yes, i broke its end, n then soldered it to destroy all the data by intense heat), so I was naturally interested. I asked if how much for an 8 gb kingston, to which he of course overpriced, n I politely told him to fvck off, quoting the right price.... And he says this, """"""Ab nahi milegi, japan me earthquake k bad sari India me hi assemble hoti h, radiation ka chakkar h!!! """"" - Not anymore, since the earthquake in Japan, assembling is being done in India, due to radiation hazards.... also referring to some checking against the same.....
I was already late, so left without saying what I had in mind....
a.) Asstard, ur stuff is MADE IN CHINA, for christ's sake...
b.)Even if u didn't know it, radiation is not like Anthrax or SARS that can be transported in polybags....
c.)Did u actually think U CAN FOOL AN IITian with an India TV story??? I mean, did he actually believe what he was saying....

73 - Grounded
I don't know why even this one's related to EEL lab.... Around the beginning of 2nd sem, I was teamed with our class convener (just for the sake of completeness - Aayush :P), and as always we were messing up with devices until the last hour.... Late realization followed by problems with circuit was really frustrating.... we probed the room for TA, and in accordance with Murphy's Law, none was available.... I don't know why, but we asked this guy sitting next to us, to show us his circuit.... Instead, he checked ours, and informed us - "This is not even grounded.".... And we were like, "Where is else to ground?".... Pointing to the edge of breadboard, he explained - "THIS IS GROUND!!!".... We realised our mistake...... :D... And I told him politely, what meant this (although told concisely and excluding reference to anything out of his domain)..."How did u clear JEE, u dimwit?????? " "This isn't an apple product so that u can get everything somewhere..... This is a stupid, fucking breadboard.... Now get lost... N thanx for help".... If it really had been connected to ground - "A wireless connection that can charge my phone in 20 min, available at $1" - Man I would be out there selling this technology for millions......

85 - Maddu
I have heard a lot about them, and I may be one of them as per CYL110 definition wrt Chandigarh... But, in my frame of reference is conventional.....And this was an eye-opener....
I was in Delhi with my brother, and going someplace in an auto.... at a red light, a stopped next to an ordinary Esteem, grey in colour, with a normal looking breadwinner driving... nothing extraordinary... our hired guy tried to plug the gap between the vehicles... probably because he had nothing else to do..... and he went little too close for comfort.... Man, that jerk sprung up, swearing at us inside the car (with windows closed.. :D) just from his angle it was a pick.... we didn't even scratch a grain, n he was all rajni.... he jumped out as if he had been pwned by a woodpecker....Banged the door, he came over, and said something which he meant to be a lesson I guess, n.. HE KICKED THE AUTO'S TIRE.... and then he went back.... I mean he seriously KICKED THE TIRE... I was really hoping for a street fight, with atleast some shattering and a swearing at the least.... Be he ran back like a chicken, just like I move when I leave a pack behind, fast and always ready to flee....  And he looked so much like Srinivas, I couldn't help attributing it to all maddus.... I mean how often do u see a working class (south) Indian citizen getting all pumped to KICK AN AUTO TIRE on a busy road....

Although no such discussion is complete without those religious titbits, I won't be able to justice with all 420 of them... I guess this is it for today... As I am freer and bored-er than before, I may post more often..... Th-th-th-thats all f-f-f-f-folks!!!

This is me Part II

Looking back at the time spent here, we encountered perplexing paradoxes, frantic frenzy of classes and assignments, and astonishing adventures, but in the end, the nostalgia nearly overwhelms my senses (specially clouding the fact - CSL201 major tomorrow). Here "we"  refers to all those brainy and/or geeky fellows, who made my life worth living here. And now, standing on the edge of lose my 'fresherity', I wonder what did I accomplish in 2 semesters here, apart from oscillating between "chilled out" and "fucking crazy" situations. Even my existential musing is at maximum, most importantly "me & future".Still I believe I'll reach some place, someone out there will find me, I'll be at peace, and not to forget - successful!

The aforementioned hypothesis is downright contradictory compared to my present self. Happiness just isn't enough for me, I demand Euphoria. Aspiring to be Calvitman, the harbinger of chaos and "logical epilepsia" to this world, I cannot fit myself in stereotypes like (quite contrary to what Dr. Kiersey thinks) "Ideal" student, or son, or lover, or douchebag, or even an asshole. I never aimed at 10, it is, irreversibly, 11 or -1 (or i), but damn those "Carnot" students, I am left leaving like I tried.... Yes, u know it, that is the feeling.. yes, that one... And what is worse, it happens all the time. I'd say, I am attracted by unattainability. Biggest factor that decides if I have a crush is "Can she be mine? - No way- I'm ON...", so the list includes only the most flawless, intelligent (wrt girls), gorgeous, almost alien gals who cannot be mine due age/address/competition.... Same goes for a career, aiming at ground-breaking academic achievement through Tale of a Gutsy Ninja; i wanna be fvckin' rich, dating superfvckin'models and own a fvckin' condo without ever fvckin' my friends, without missing the fun, and even a grain lower will be sheer disappointment. Trying to use all the 24 hrs has been on list for quite a while, (yes, there is a list) alongwith sincerity and being a little empathetic and courteous....

Well, what to do it is the question (as is To be or not to be..). I know 42 is right, but I want to explore far and wide, like 007, or (Five million one hundred and eighteen thousand eight)^(-1), etc..... My reliability and devotion might be questioned, but I have always waited for the Millenium Falcon to reach my goal fast (can't help it, my optimization shows it is always better to wait)... but alas, it has been mistaken for callous attitude. To all the non-believer I'd say..."Ungli karna band karo" - Stop pointing fingers, I am trying to try to try to try....to try to give my best, and a day may came when u all shall see.... although I hate to admit it, I am lost. I know Ich bin nicht der erste , so this will come to pass.... I'd appreciate supernatural help like Spark, Galileo, or HOT tub time machine.... without excluding farfetched doomsday - 2012, evil google, skynet, androids, etc, but I do wish if they happen to happen, they should, before I give up. I may actually find a super soaker, for which I must actually use my N, F and P together with a borrowed I, without being a big bonehead. But, till then I wanna live with unbridled exhileration, possess unquestionable faith, face unknown adventures and stack up memories...

P.S. - Dedicated to all my nerdy pals, who dare to dream big, and actually calculate probability before commiting... ;)
P.S. - Title inspired by Francis Ford Coppola

Oh! It's Nothing!!

Belonging to the sacred clan of Atheists, I knew God can do "nothing" whatever I may be upto, although I felt the Force...
With a heart as pure as Bisleri, and a mind as bright as a Blackbody, I set forth on a journey through the darkest alleys, in the 3-membered dungeons, with other victims of destiny; trapped in the gen-jutsu of lavish bunglows, ravishing partners, Swiss accounts and a legacy of success; we left our homes, our families, our beloveds ( those who had time to have some, while we "mugged" for JEE) , our sleep, our apetite, everything (nearly :P)...... When anyone asks me - What are doing these days at IIT, sir utha k, seena taan k, me faqr se kehta hu,"Kuch nahi"..... Absolutely "Nothing".....

So, what is this NOTHING neway.... some say it is a hoax, just like Superman and Area 51, but these are the people who still are unaware of the Force and toil 18hrs a day, only to be beaten by those who r now just like me, but above, who do "NOTHING" and just by advancing to "Super-IITian" mode, top course in matter of hours... But, I know NOTHING (i am dropping the quotes for saving some energy for my children...) better than any1 else... I am a true master of NOTHING.... I'd even say, I m made up of NOTHING, and it shows... People look at me and say, "There is NOTHING on ur bones" or "U eat NOTHING"... U C, I have it all....

My definition of NOTHING - (assuming reader knows what a THING is) Anything that cannot be named is NOTHING... U C.. U pass on a one-liner, and Prof. asks what was it.... Yes, it was NOTHING... U have majors from 29th and what have u been doing the whole day... NOTHING... Go on, u r getting hold of it... U C, the old definition is wrong, where NOTHING means non-existence of Anything... (although the subject of Anything is itself very complex and involved, specially when it comes to choosing ice-cream, but it is out of scope of this text.....) NOTHING is an instance of Anything that cannot be named, or even better "that has no apparent significance", this saves u the trouble of calling NOTHING without a name.... U C, I have spent my whole life studying NOTHING, spending hours like chillar, with sole purpose... NOTHING... take for instance, what is this post about-NOTHING..... what do professors teach us - NOTHING.... what do u see in a girl - NOTHING...... what will happen if u flunk these majors - NOTHING..... what do u take from DC, from net - NOTHING..... what will we give to this world - NOTHING
U C, now UC... I am a firm believer that GOD tricked us in believing 42 was the answer, when we were so close to discovering NOTHING.... I have faith in NOTHING, it is the universal ANSWER....
What was there before Big Bang - NOTHING
What is that projecting in ur pocket - NOTHING
And on..n on... n on...


I feel like I am the creator of NOTHING...  I am leaving NOTHING to this world as my gift.... And after reading this post, I hope u understand NOTHING.... I am NOTHING!!! And hence, I pass into NOTHINGNESS.......

(Pun intended everywhere, If u r doing NOTHING, try looking for NOTHING, U C.... u'll get it)

I tried to read Algebra after Minors

Hi..
Being an IITian, I make a lot of efforts to keep up with ever rising standards of procrastination and lousiness. I feel obliged to confess sins like studying after minors, etc, and I am ready for prosecution.

This is what actually happened....
After having screwed the minors, I watched Freaks and Geeks (it kicks ass!!) all night, partly because I was guilty. The little bit of conscience, I still have left in me, started revolting, much like the "Angel and Devil" situation in Tom n Jerry, and just to suppress it, I had to pick up a book, which happened to be on "Algebra". This is where my "Special Task Force of thoughts" came to rescue. Here is the report....

The standard ones came first : -
Why am I here? I used to be so good, what happened to me? Am I fit to be in IIT?

And then begun specialised, situation dependant thought process : -
"I am going around in a circle, ie ending where I begun, not matter what I do. I must follow a plan. If I assume that whosoever made the circle must have made it to his specifications, ie something must have bound him to the centre, and he went round and round. (It seems more logical that someone else has already been here). Now the question is was the guy rational or irrational. Because he was a human, and humans cannot form groups as they do not have unity. Hence, humans are not rational, ie humans are irrational. So, it must have been an irrational thought which bound him to his centre of attraction (which most probably was some XX creature). So, I also know that if I take rational steps, and knowing that I am not at the correct position, then I will never end up on my original point, since the circle is irrational, except the case where radius = p/q(pi). But, I have tried taking rational steps after all the 4 exams till now, and I end up at the same position where I begun, so r = p/q(pi) and the circle is indeed rational, and thus, I have to take irrational steps such that they do not become rational at a time. Also, the answer to this question must be irrational, which in turn implies lack of rationality in IIT courses."
And here is a new turn :-
"Even if I take irrational steps, there are uncountable number of them, and since I am literate and know the scientific notation, I can never stop counting, then my whole analysis must be flawed. Talking about analysis, what if it is not to be solved using algebraic theory, but "real analysis" which sounds more rational (damn these rationals). Being on a circle, most familiar situation would be a Discrete Metric over all Real choices. This explains I feel like being trapped in the same circle even after making different choices. I am indeed a Self-Centered person, and so even after making different choices, I will always be the center of my world. This analysis is really complex (damn it!!!) . But, luckily the same analysis is valid for all the complex situations as well. This also means I can never get out this vicious circle, until of course, either I am kicked out, or pass out, or maybe some new "Metric" enters my life where someone/something else is more special, and my steps become sequential rather than simultaneous, and hence my rollback equilibrium shifts to optimum performance. Till then, I am more like prisoner and the equilibrium solution of my dilemma is the worst for me. Whoa... I finally sorted this out.... damn it, I don't want to miss 10th class in a row"

So u see, I was more or less able to pass the 2 hrs I had left after finishing Freaks and Geeks, and before my maths class. More of this later. :)

I leave it to the reader to help me out with the loopholes.... or new theories...

This is me....

Dear readers
This is my first blog. I believe it is customary to introduce oneself in first blog. I am not going to give a formal introduction in foreseeable future. I am a student at IIT, and I have a handful of reasons to start blogging, like a need to express myself, discuss things I love, meet new people, and all my good and successful friends doing it. I am decent in studies, but I love thinking and doing things out of the box, ie making new ways rather than getting stuck in traffic. I want to become a great physicist, and I love to do anything that makes me feel alive.
My favourite words are "Who Cares!!!"
This blog is specifically for discussing anything and everything, and of course, ANYTHING INTERESTING IN PHYSICS AND MATHEMATICS. I had a decent rank in IITJEE (in top 100), and I'd love to help, of course, until someone does not become a pest, that is. Any constructive sugestions are welcome.
Adios
PS - Tell me if u do anything crazy and exciting...